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Ok. Revamp time.

2008-05-25T15:42:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round

Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign

cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time

Funny how time changes how we see.

Exams.

2007-08-28T20:27:00.000+08:00

Ok here's a quick one. Prelims are damn stressful ya, doesn't help when i get no breaks in between papers. thank god for the September holidays for me to study (or rather catch up). haha. Math is tml and i'm really going to fail la. Like totally hopeless alr.

Anyway, talked to Sabrina recently and i'm just really glad we talked even though it was kind of like 4 years too late! :)

Birthdays!

2007-08-09T14:38:00.000+08:00

Ok steffi's birthday came first and well here it is. Lousy pics though, hastily taken. And oh, Xy's msg was terribly funny la. Msg the birthday girl if she would like to share the cost for her own present. XD

Yup and now for Jazreel's birthday which is this Friday. But we celebrated it with loads of choir j1's and some j2's on the morning of national day eve! Yup although the cake was really damn good, credits to Nicole. but i thought we couldn't finish it b4 assembly, thankfully Celine the monster came down and brought reinforcements. XD

Sch uniform day! haha.

2007-07-21T10:34:00.000+08:00

Yes we were bored so we went out with our sch uniforms. and before that, i played interclass bball and won 32-12! :) tiring but exciting day!

Yup and our grp photos here with me suet shaun and bryan! I look terribly horrible, and everyone was tiried ya. It was so difficult to use my phone's timer mode properly. haha. nvm! we have another sch uniform outing another time! hahahaha. XD

I hate cjc's retreats

2007-07-12T22:24:00.000+08:00

Argh. Seriously Cjc shouldn't make retreats compulsory and force everyone to go. As much as they don't say force, they do. Erm i mean just look at Js's and Bp's stupid face u mean they don't have to look that says:"if u don't go for the retreat i will ____ u"? haha. So this is it. I'm definitely going all out to not go. And see what can they say if i can back my absence with an mc. what are they gonna do sue me to court for not attending a retreat that is not the least bit life changing? Or are they planning to prove to MOE that they don't give a shit about the 5 day week thingy?

More recent events!

2007-07-02T22:59:00.000+08:00

This was ice skating day with the J2's! haha. i didn't skate, and so Jun hoe, Joan and I sat outside the ring trying to communicate to them through the plastic boundary and taking pics - having a good laugh at the same time, whilst waiting for them to finish skating.

And this is Chris. Camera shy b4 we had our regs and co. outing at Sentosa.
I got sunburnt la. and thats rare, but not surprising since i haven't been really an outdoors person since i left cat high. :(

Ya and another of the highlights besides Sentosa. My best drumming buddy Bryan just turned 20! and ya we had ice cream cake, 2 Earthquakes and ALOT of fun! haha. Cat and I had a fun time ganging up against Bryan's younger bro too! haha. Yup and to top it all off a Dmgf buddy pic with Albert Bryan and Me at the arcade. :)

Ok i haven't been posting so here goes!

2007-07-01T09:15:00.000+08:00

For starters some pics that i took in Slovakia.

My fav Cafe in Sopron!

My fav knn bass =)

Erm the Food! (sorry for messing up the thumbnails haha.)

I'm back from Eastern Europe again!!!!!!!

2007-06-08T01:30:00.000+08:00

Yes back alr ya. Very good! lazy to type stuff but ya will start posting pics! (when blogger is like in a good mood XD) erm and additional info : We got a Gold! and had loads of fun! yup! chocolate coated Vanilla Truffles are the BEST!

2007-05-27T09:40:00.001+08:00

Omg, its Qibin and his lookalike! haha. His Cow balloon!

Saw this at Bread talk. I was like huh? so no i'm bread la! A Bian!

U should have seen the look on Xinrui's and Nicole's face when they saw this huge praying mantis which was as long as any 15cm ruler. XD Nic and I were snapping away though :P

And there you have it! This is no longer a boring blog! haha. I've got retarded stuff on it now muahahahahhahahaha! Anyways flying of to Slovakia in like a few days time and i've yet to start packing? haha. Gonna start today ya! :)

weee!

2007-05-24T09:57:00.000+08:00

its a few hours b4 history h1 and i've come here to destress. haha. erm, ya going thru the int'l policies and stuff isn't really making me any happier but ya. good luck to all jc1 and jc2 peeps taking Gp and H1 this week! and Jamie Lee pls get well soon! you still need to go slovakia ya! we need you! :)
i am so so so _ _ _ _ _ _

Okay time to get ready to enter the slaughter house! this is damn exciting ya????? XD

2007-05-08T22:00:00.000+08:00

Eh today effing tired la. Choir untill like siao then syf i think ah i GG alr tml still got sch need to study. :( ah heck tml need to rest alr la! The results didn't really matter to me actually, i hope everyone is ok. Lastly, Dinner was fantastic la. Was at thai express, and we finally ate alot of spicy food lol. like who cares now? for now at least haha!

.... no coments.

2007-05-05T00:34:00.000+08:00

Man Utd lost to AC Milan. haha. No comments. People think i am some idoit. No comments. People underestimate my intelligence. No comments. Yes it does get frustrating at times like this, but i guess i can live with it. Since i am not viewed as the most athletic or intelligence or studious mugger who gets all the good/decent grades. Haha, and i'm game anytime for sports, maybe my stamina was not as good as my 5hr a day soccer cum basketball sessions but i still enjoy sports. oh wells, jc life if ur cca not sports cca very hard to find kaki to play game la. :(

I will stick to my singing and drumming and be happy with what i do. Not planning to switch my blog around just coz many ppl who do not tag my board read all my rantings. I mean read then read lor, like its their problem in the first place? haha.

Eh today's Dm was good la. I managed to get a B for overthere adv la. freaking lvl80 adv song which isn't exactly very easy. hmm.. well at least i had fun with jerry,bryan ,Shawn and most importantly Aim. Man i missed that dude la. XD hrrmm... tml have choir so i shall slp now b4 i knock out tml or smth!

Ns go and die la.

2007-05-03T20:20:00.000+08:00

Wah pua cb i tell u, those admin personnel and retarded ppl ask me enlist on the 13th of Septemeber ->2007<- 2007?!?!?!? OMG WTF BBQ? i swear they are like totally gonna die la i'm gonna drop the atomic bomb on tekong! erm what a mistake ok? I HAVE A LEVELS TO TAKE! OMGOMGOMG. and check this out. "AS U DID NOT ATTAIN THE REQUIRED NAPFA TEST STANDARD, YOU WILL BE ATTENDING A 4 WEEK PHYSICAL TRAINING PHASE PROGRAMME FOLLOWED BY 9 WEEKS OF BASIC MILITARY TRAINING" and i will say FUCK U!

wah lan eh, like ask me enlist early not good enough must give me false info that i am fat and obese? i go lose weight become underweight report for u fatty ppl programme i bet your officer will get a shock ah. train 6pack for u to see make ur officers feel sad can. my tian.

ok, that felt great the customer services officer just got a crazy 18+ year old student bombarding him, that poor guy. who ask his co workers go into Ns never use brain for so long all become so stupid. oh wells thats all. shoik sia i feel better! XD

Woots jap songs FTW!

2007-05-02T21:51:00.000+08:00

星のカケラ (hoshi no kakera)
Artist: Yum!Yum!ORANGE
Mix: GFV2/DMV2

真夜中に流れ落ちる銀色の星屑
mayonaka ni nagare ochiru kiniro no hoshikuzu
暖かい夏の風が心モヤモヤ溶かしてく
atatakai natsu no kaze ga kokoro moyamoya tokashiteku

小さな頃に思い描いた
chiisa na koro ni omoiegaita
夢のカケラをどこかに忘れてきたんだ
yume no kakera o dokoka ni wasurete kita n da

* 傷ついたり落ち込んだり涙した後には
kizutsuitari ochikondari namida shita ato ni wa
きっと大事なものがなにか気付くことができるから
kitto daiji na mono ga nanika kizuku koto ga dekiru kara
見上げた夜空手をかざして
miageta yozora te o kazashite
一番遠い星つかまえに行こう
ichiban tooi hoshi tsukamae ni ikou

まぶたを閉じて伝わる満月のささやき
mabuta o tojite tsutawaru mangetsu no sasayaki
涼しげな川のほとり心模様を映しだす
suzushige na kawa no hotori kokoro moyou o utsushidasu

今までずっと遠回りして
ima made zutto toomawari shite
輝く空に気付かず歩いていたんだ
kagayaku sora ni kikukazu aruite ita n da

** 喜んだり楽しんだり微笑んだ後には
yorokondari tanoshindari hohoenda ato ni wa
きっと大事なものがなにか気付くことができるから
kitto daiji na mono ga nanika kizuku goto ga dekiru kara
見上げた夜空手をかざして
miageta yozora te o kazashite
一番遠い星つかまえに行こう
ichiban tooi hoshi tsukamae ni ikou

過ぎた月日はもう帰らない
sugita tsukihi wa mou kaeranai
だからもう一度カケラを探してみるんだ
dakara mou ichido kakera o sagashite miru n da

Long day again!

2007-04-30T22:33:00.000+08:00

Yeap just came back from choir. And had dinner with a few of the J1's at bishan. Hmmm i must say that my wanton mee can be renamed as Chilli Mee Wanton. XD Coz its chilli dominant, which accompanies the Mee and the wanton the supposed to be highlight of the dish has been overshadowed by all the spice! haha.

hmmm choir was from 5-8 today la horribly long. So yes, can't do much at all. Luckily i studied during my breaks ^^ so history is at least half covered. And i might not fail so badly haha. =X anyways, syf is really around around around the corner's corner. Ok, haha just didn't know how to make it sound really urgent. Hmm maybe i'm just to calm. AND lastly! Mr Toh is on a suaning rampage i swear. He's going nuts! =D

Long Vacation - Close to u

2007-04-29T23:23:00.000+08:00

Oh my gosh this instrumental piece really brings back memories. and now i really want to watch this old Japanese series back in about 1998-200 or so? i can't recall but its really damn good.
Anyways, its back to school on Monday. And i have history test coming up. Well at least i did do my geog tut to a large extent! ^^

Drumming has been enjoyable today too. I'm improving bit by bit. =) Life's good yea, its really busy a period and hectic now but i'm gonna enjoy it la. When i go army its like everyday army talk, cfm talk untill my mouth rot or smth. I think i will do the most difficult challenge ever. Which is not to swear in army. woots. thats like wow right. i will try! XD

Still listening to the instrumental piece. ^^ Its pleasant, calming, yet stirs emotions in me. I really must watch that show again. =)

Jap music frenzy.

2007-04-27T22:17:00.000+08:00

Hm.. today's choir prac was long and draining, well it was supposed to be but i'm perfectly comfortable with this intensitiy. Everyone is getting nervy and all avout syf, yes this is the thousandth time i'm saying this but. I'm ok with it. Maybe used to it. But i'm still giving my all whenever i sing coz i love singing. ^^

Erm ok, i'm on a jap music frenzy now induced by nicole's share file site la. Lol! Hide, v6, Smap, Long Vacation Ost, Speed, Do as infinity, Xjapan. OMG haha all so nice la cannot tahan at all.
Tml gonna watch movie la. So long never watch movie le! XD

And here's a really nice chinese song that i just got rehooked on!

o.s.
有珍:"俊祥…"
俊祥:"有珍,我们约在这里见面对不对,
在十二月三十一号,我想起来了,那天我想跟你说的话
有珍我爱你
my memory 抱住你我找回我自己
爱没有痕迹
却是一种重量压痛胸膛
you,re far away 抱歉没能保护你
那些无助的孤单几乎放弃的绝望不在你身旁
恨不得时间能真的倒转
不曾让你悲伤不曾彷徨没有遗憾
给你温柔的手世界尽头也陪你一起走
i wanna love you forever
希望还来得及我要用全部生命爱着你
my destiny 我要好好珍惜你
那些漫长的黑夜几乎幻灭的希望不在你身旁
恨不得时间能真的倒转
不曾让你悲伤不曾彷徨没有遗憾
给你温柔的手世界尽头也陪你一起走
i wanna love you forever
希望还来得及我要用全部生命爱着你

There is nothing wrong with me.

2007-04-26T20:54:00.000+08:00

I officially declare on this little humble blog of mine : I"m Fine guys! So don't worry about me at all! :) ALSO, i wanna say a big thank u to those who were concern about me in one way or another, to Ado, Shaz, Milli, Steffi and Anne! Thank you so much. I love u girls too alright. :)

Unfortunately as much as i would like to forever hold my peace i do have to say something somehow some where. It doesn't mean that when i just shut my mouth and sit in class, when i sometimes or more than often end up dosing off means that something is wrong with me. Besides, I've said this before and I shall just repeat it ya, good friends need not hang out with each other all the time. Cheryl Lee is my good friend i see her once a week and share a sms chat of less than 5 messages every fortnight. We can still sit down and talk through about matters of the heart even though she does her usual disappearing act. Prague trip 2006 was the perfect example.

TingWei is arguably one of my best guy friends in school. I see him rarely during breaks and perhaps at history lectures. I can still pull him and talk to him when i have the time and all. same goes for many other ppl, Celine Choe, Cheryl Cher, Tricia Lim, Bryan, Joan Chin (fufu), Kang Seng and all my good old guy buddies from my professional gaming days of counter strike source. And thus i don't think any of them get irritated frustrated and wad not just coz i've distanced from them. Say i have 15 relatively good friends, and i have currently 10 friends which i hang out more often with now. Does that mean i have to split my 24 hours and devote my time to them so that i can ensure that they know fully well i am doing fine? I think not.

I don't see the real need to explain so much but well too many assumptions are being made about me. So u said u lost me, but did u care to recall the times when i stood by u? i do not seek ur forgiveness for i have done nothing against my conscience. But i can officially tell u i am over u. Completely. And even as blunt and direct we are as friends there has to be this kind of cool down period.

And so i will emphasize, I am perfectly fine and happy. And I am perfectly ok with u. I'm just living my own life and I'm not screwing it up in anyway. Don't imply so much from my daily actions. And try not to pass judgements ya? thank you so much.

Anyways! those who read this entry and get unhappy about it or wad not, here's a fact. It is u who came here, it is u who chose to read. It is u who chose to feel what u feel as well. So yes, thats all i have to say at this minor outlet for me to say what i feel. Read at ur own will. And thanks again to those whom showed concern for me ya! ^^

Syf draws closer.

2007-04-23T22:07:00.000+08:00

Yes Syf is like really around the corner ya. Everyone, almost everyone is panicking. With the exception of me, and maybe if we're lucky a few others besides Mr Toh who is still relatively calm to some extent. I know its like woah so fast and its here, and everyone thinks the preparation is not good, we're all gonna die kind of thing. But i'm not sure if its me or wad but i've been through 3 Syfs and countless competitions over 5 years with 2 choirs. i can't say i've seen it all but i'm sure i've seen quite enough to tell if we're ok or not. Silver is a possibility, but like chill Gold is not as difficult to achieve as it seems. Cjc isn't that lousy ok, otherwise i would have just walked out of the LT every practice cause its just too awful. Only one overall comment on Syf thus far, guys just don't worry and do what u can now. The last push is never enjoyable, and its tiring so get used to it and get some rest. For me ironically, i have become so numb to Syfs its just seems like another chance for me to prove to myself that i can perform under pressure. No worries.

Anyway yesterday we celebrated Jasmine's birthday ya. Gave her a big surprise and this time Chirs and I lit the candles AGAIN. yes we're like the candle ppl in charge or smth ya. got her ice cream and a shirt. then subsequently we all went to marina bay for steam boat. It was fun ya. Cynthia was doing lots of cooking, i helped her a little. And the others don't seem to know how to flip the meat ya? lol. I always end up eating the chao tar meat given by Nicole or Chris or wadeva. We went bowling too! but ya one game only, shall play more at a cheaper time slot cause $3.90 is too much. XD alrites thats all for now. ciao!

Chinese song craze!

2007-04-18T20:58:00.000+08:00

记得 - 张惠妹

谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口

过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

我们都忘了
这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的
有一天有一天都会停的

让时间说真话
虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后
我们都不知道会不会有遗憾

谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句
是我们以后的伤口

过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

我们都累了
却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑
怎么说怎么说都没有救

亲爱的为什么
也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人
等对方先说找分开的理由

谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中
看见了不同的天空
走的太远

终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我
要有两个相反的梦

谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口

过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

I love this song la. haha. whoever wants it just Pm me!!!!!

Something really cool from celine's blog

2007-04-16T23:41:00.000+08:00

Got this from Cel's blog ya pretty cool and i shows really pleasant looking pics (to me at least, with some exceptions) :P yes i think this brightens this space up a lil! :)

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Good studying week

2007-04-15T22:16:00.002+08:00

alrite, i managed to complete all of geog. and a portion of econs. like crap haha, managed to really get down to work on friday and saturday but today? no, i just couldn't work as efficiently as yesterday and friday. anyways i've been like studying with the regs and stuff, they're like really nice ppl!

Went to Cck this morning coz studying session was designated at 1pm at woodlands. so i had time to meet up and visit the cck ppl ya. its been a while since i've been there. very busy with school and all! yup after that Chris and I met Nic and Jamie and we got down to MOS eventually to settle down and study. I managed to revise econs and help Jas and Jamie with history and geog like lol. couldn't finish writting my essay but heck!

I met up with the 2 bryans and we ate dinner at Plaza Sing, river side really has great food ya. Not bad for foodcourt stuff ^^ yeaps sch resumes tml and well i'll just do my best at everything i can and try to pay attention! (kbox craving activated!)

WEEE!

2007-04-12T21:11:00.000+08:00

I did my history essay outline which is 2 pages long today!!!!!! Involved so much reading which i haven't done in like ages? hahahaha. YEA! and i managed to get some geog reading done, i even read some case studies from lecture 3 like zomg!!! All done at bishan library which is actually a decent place to study if u can find seats, just that its really cold ^^ hahah.

And i helped Jamie and Nic out with their work and stuff ya. lols. It was a pretty much a tiring day but fulfilling day! haha. Cleared some amounts of work and i really feel good. now i can start building up my study mood! XD and this is random but. I CAN'T WAIT TO GO SLOVAKIA. :)

crappy week

2007-04-08T09:23:00.000+08:00

I'm currently doing my freaking geog essays now. And i've hardly touched econs yet. i think this coming week is really a week for me to die. seriously teachers, this is A CATHOLIC SCHOOL. Good Friday, Maundy Thursday and what not DOES NOT equate to a holiday for all. There are hundreds of Catholics and yet the workload is like =O jaw dropping. Homework plus 2 tests how about that argh. crap forget it. Just had to get this off my chest so that i'll continue choinging geog essays -_-"

And to an insensitive bunch. I actually expected much more maturity from u guys for 17/18 year olds. Whats new actually, why make things such a big hoohaa? Go do your homework instead if u all have 'nothing better to do'. i'm sure u haven't finished everything. You guys are like affecting someone else if u haven't noticed ya. Pls be more considerate. (another -_-")

Easter Vigil ended like at 11pm. i reached home and was almost mummified alr ya. and now i'm awake in the morning doing geog. what has the world come to? what happened to my week end drumming. or at least a movie? enjoyable lunch with close friends? can't believe my entire weekend is just about to end like this. Almost nothing done besides church commitments. Thank God for no choir prac today. ( i would have ponned it anyways) XD
-THE END-

Decided! everything done.

2007-04-01T21:43:00.000+08:00

Ok, after so SO SO much consideration which really gave me a big headache, and with some extensive discussion with cher, we have decided to go FOR THE SLOVAKIA TRIP. ok like omg. so now since my DM GF target is almost already there, i shall totally reduce my playing time and MUG like i never did b4 (ok, honestly i never did)

Haiya, so anyways now i shall start mugging. No more DM GF, not too much rather. Ah Bloody shit tml freaking need to go to Central Manpower Base AGAIN, to go for colestrol check up. 8Am leh!!!! really waste of my time sigh. NS here i come. :(